From battlefield to blessings field...
This is the phrase that was etched in my mind and heart after listening to Joel Osteen's service and this really applies to different aspects in our life. This phrase paved the way for me to join a beautiful opportunity that I know will lead me to change.
Let me invite you to take a peek in my battlefield and hopefully pick a lessson or two from my story. I am Pie and I've been in this battlefield of attaining my desired and ideal weight for the longest time now. I say it's a battlefield because there were times/years that I am fit while there were times I am more than my ideal weight and right now this is my situation. In my early twenties, (21-23) I can model (haha) for sleevess, short skirts and anything that would fit a slim person and my mantra then was
"If you have it, flaunt it."
Now my mantra is
" Hide those bulges"!
Allow me to narrate the succeeding years of my battle of winning and losing:
24-25 I am more than my ideal weight
26-27 Back to ideal weight more so my desired weight of 100 pounds (and this is now more of a Throwback scenario for me)
28- was pregnant
29 -Post pregnancy weight
30-31 Back to ideal weight from time to time
32-33 to now - Stuck in this overweight with bulges (weight is 120 pounds and height is 4'11)
and being stuck in this level is like being stuck in Candy Crush while you figure out how to get to the next level with all your might while trying different moves.
My battle of winning and losing in pictures:
2005, 26 years old
2008, 29 years old
2011, 32 years old
Allow me as well to take you back to the desired weight where I am most confident. I desire this because I am not to thin nor to fat. In short,
may laman. Just excuse my flabby arms because they are loyal to me whether I am fat or slim.
Flashback, Throwback ... go back
2010
April 2011
Now... Reality Check
May 2012
The start of gaining weight again
December 2012
Now
January 2013
I can't even do a simple jump!
Thanks for cover ups.
Just like in Candy Crush, there are tactics and moves which you can use to level up. I had my share of moves too in which sometimes would work while sometimes not. These were exercise (but not consistently), fruit diet, no rice diet et al. (but not slimming pills)
It's a trial and error.
But don't get me wrong, I am still confident with my body and most importantly love my body. This is God's gift and for me nothing is impossible. It just that it takes a toll on me when:
- I can't even hide the bulge anymore even if I am wearing a girdle
- I can't wear that beautiful dresses with garter in the middle (which is now the common design in dresses)
- "Are you pregnant" remarks. The first time I was asked about this, I was okay with it. The second time I was asked about it, I took it as a confirmation that my tummy is really that comparable to a pregnant lady in her first trimester.
- From Medium to Large
- Seeing my "those were the slim days" sitting in my closet and waiting for me to reunite with them
- Doing some hide-my-tummy-and-arms whenever I pose for pitcures
I maybe exaggerating in wanting to lose weight but it always lead to the fact that I am overweight at this moment and wanting to feel lighter is something I still look forward to. Truth be told, I actually wear many hats (from workplace to my sidelines to my home) which most of the times lead me not having the opportunity to really give time to improve my weight. For me instead of time in the gym, I will spend it with my dear son since I am working most of the time. But I know too that I am not being selfish if I give it one more try with the right opportunity to the road of change.
This thought brings me to my answers why I would like to join
because:
1. Caring for myself makes me give more care to my loved ones and others because it gives me that much needed break to also rejuvenate while losing weight in Marie France or some sweet pampering in Facial Care Center and enjoying this "me time " of mine.
A quick break needed
2. This would be a great help in my battle with my bulges because at this point in time, I feel that my metabolism is slowing down and I need help in this area. Marie France Ultrashape-VDF is the answer for this.
3. I look forward in losing weight in a manner that is correct and have been tested for its effectiveness. I know I am meant for this.
4. I believe that this is a great start for me to really lose weight after I have this great opportunity in Marie France.
5. Change is always good. I would like to embrace this change and then I will give meaning to consistency in my discipline in exercise and diet. After all, I don't want to lose again the feeling of being light.
6. To celebrate my 34th birthday on May 25 with a twist :)
From battlefield to blessings field... I claim it with all my heart.
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